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My uh, my name, well, most people call me Seth or P4, I don't mind what you call me. I am a 15-year old two-spirit and an aspiring musician/electro-house producer, mangaka, and novelist. I am an anarchist, as in I understand and advocate the political philosophy of Anarchism. I have Asthma, Restless Leg Syndrome, and possible Klinefelter's (Planning on getting my karyotype/chromosomes checked out sometime in the future.)

Now on to my mental problems. I have had chronic depression ever since I was 10, and BPD symptoms for the around the last year. I only just learned about BPD a little after summer ended last year. I've never been diagnosed, but everytime I learn more about BPD, the more it matches me perfectly. My relationships with some of my friends is, strained, at the best, and some of my friends admit to liking me less than they would if I had my emotional issues under control, because of my splitting. My moods can switch in seconds from happiness to self-hate or relaxation to extreme anxiety. I tend to have moods of complete and utter emptiness where I lose the motivation to even move.

I have several friends, and a loving mother-figure who all do their best to help me when I have a "BPD moment", but I just feel like I'm a burden on them when I'm feeling bad, which is part of the reason I want to seek help.

Pariah,

Well, you don't have to feel like a burden here. I'll help any way I can.

seth
welcome onboard
I can understand what you mean by strained relationships. I have 3 friends who are avoiding me after i sent them a couple of suicidal threats. When confronted with why they avoid me, the answer was, "don't ask, okay"

Welcome Seth,

So glad you are here. Do you have any plans for finding a therapist?

dagwood

Hello all, nice to meet you all.

@ Dagwood Yes, I am, I found a psychologist nearby that seems perfect for my certain issues. I plan to contact her later this summer, after I've come back from Maryland to meet some internet friends.

Hi there, Seth!

Welcome to the board. I hope that the meeting with your new psychologist goes fine.
Perhaps you can talk to her about possible BPD trait diagnosis? Could help with getting you the treatment that you need.