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Went out last night with a group to dinner. I sat with a woman I didn't know too well and found out what a remarkable person she is. She does stuff like takes care of a very disabled grandson, takes care of a granddaughter and adopted her, takes care of a disabled daughter, and is a big sister to an undepriviledged child. All this and she is retirement age and she lost her husband last year.

My point is that I was able to meet an interesting person. I spent some quality time with my own kids. I hugged some other friends. Touched people. I got some of the inner emptiness filled up because of things "I" did.

Maybe I can remember that next time I don't want to socialize and do it anyway.

Just wanted to share a small victory.

:bananadance

Good for you! Sometimes we just have to get out of our own heads and mingle with the world. You never know who you're going to meet! We went out last night and I didn't particularly want to. But I got engrossed in the conversations and forgot about mys eld and it was wonderful being around other people. I'm proud of you!!!! :thumbsup

That's great, C2L. I agree with BG. It's what we all need--to stop focusing on ourselves and our inner struggles, and get out and learn from other people how to live life instead of thinking about life. :thumbsup

Hey C2L _

Very nice going !!! Love that you went ahead and went out- hesitations put aside. Love that you found more than 1 or 2 things to be grateful/happy for about the night. Love that you see you need to try it again!!

I hope you continue to push yourself a bit, and continue to find the joy from having done so.

Very glad you shared with us.. Congrats !!

Thanks you guys!!

Tonight I have another thing I sort of have to go to. It is another social gathering and I'm hesitant AGAIN. But I'm going to go and I will report back how it went. I realize I do have a lot of anxiety about social situations. When my mood is more up I feel more social and able to communicate and say things that sound coherent. When I'm more down and insecure, I don't feel confident and I think I sound hesistant in conversation. So far today I'm feeling fairly normal. I'm tired, but feel okay. I hope it goes okay. My gut feeling is I don't wanna. :shysmile

I'm really proud of you.

I have a real hard time with social situations.

Your victory does not go unnoticed!!

good for you, C2L. wow, i would like to learn from that lady. how hard must that be.

i hope you went out again, and enjoyed yourself. in some way, somehow. big step.